One question arose in my mind today (although not the first time) and it span my head round and round. What's the meaning of my existence in this whole seemingly infinite universe crawling in this ever ticking thing called called 'time', with an incomprehensible monodirectional infinitude and bidirectional geometry. It may all be an illusion, but there are dimensions or elements to our own domain of illusions which uncover themselves as we figure them out. Or, perhaps our scientific progress is just our marginal propensity to illude (if there is such a word), like they say about a lot of other stuff in economics.
I don't know what to do. If I choose to believe that we are all living in some illusion, then I'll have to fight the uneasiness of not knowing the reality. This belief, however, has the nature of non-belief in things being real as they are, and therefore does not crave for evidence so as to exist. If I choose to believe that all this is real, I'll have to fight the uneasiness of believing something without any evidence. In any case, I am unable to make choices of belief or non-belief. It simply does not happen with me. I either know, or I don't know. But when I don't know, and I know or feel that I can't know, it sucks. What should I do?
I don't know what to do. If I choose to believe that we are all living in some illusion, then I'll have to fight the uneasiness of not knowing the reality. This belief, however, has the nature of non-belief in things being real as they are, and therefore does not crave for evidence so as to exist. If I choose to believe that all this is real, I'll have to fight the uneasiness of believing something without any evidence. In any case, I am unable to make choices of belief or non-belief. It simply does not happen with me. I either know, or I don't know. But when I don't know, and I know or feel that I can't know, it sucks. What should I do?
Very true. It's meaningless...I used to have similar dilemmas..However, I am out of it now. I have stopped the search and moved ahead. It does not matter to me whether it's illusion or reality. I just know that there are few things that makes me feel good...lets do it..there are few things which make me sad, unhappy...try to avoid or overcome it...And else if u can't avoid or overcome it, then just take it easy.. There are few questions which can't be answered and quests which can't be satisfied...so don't worry..Love and lets be loved... :)
ReplyDeleteVery true. It's meaningless...I used to have similar dilemmas..However, I am out of it now. I have stopped the search and moved ahead. It does not matter to me whether it's illusion or reality. I just know that there are few things that makes us feel good...lets do it..there are few things which make us sad, unhappy...try to avoid or overcome it...And else if one can't avoid or overcome it, then just take it easy.. There are few questions which can't be answered and quests which can't be satisfied...so don't worry..Love and lets be loved... :)
ReplyDeleteIts good and bad to go through the quest and question our existence. Good because it keeps you engaged at a different level from the hackneyed worthless subjects and bad because it is futile. But its worth the effort as it will lead to discovering oneself...what makes one happy and unhappy. Majority of people end up living by other people's rules and standards and have yet to discover themselves...me included.
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